JJ's Journey

Last month I asked my followers on my Facebook page what topic I should write about next on my blog, and a friend, Tracey, responded: “People who are unhappily married, cheating or being cheated on...abused even...do nothing but complain of their spouse, life, even children...BUT whom never stop asking..."WHEN are you ever getting married? WHY aren’t you married? Don't you want kids?” So, here goes my best try at the topic. I thought about this one for a few weeks. I can definitely relate! It’s a two-fold subject—the unhappy people and their obsessions with other people’s lives. I’ve known a lot of these “unhappy peeps” throughout my 33 years. I often analyze them as being indecisive characters who do not deal well with change, and who rely heavily on the past. They also tend to believe that comfort in familiarity is better…or I should say easier to live with than comfort with strangeness and change…even when that strangeness offers more stability and happiness. As hu...

Title: Silence By: JJ Persis I miss your silence . I want to hear you breathe. Your lips against my ears. Inhale my being. Exhale your pain. Your eyes. Mystery. Shields of the truth. A million worries. Lost. I miss your pain. You sit on the chair—legs crossed. Your head tilted down. The way you hold the glass in your hand. Your right hand touches your knee, and— you think. Your lips, ohhh—your lips. I miss your lips. Softness. They can only speak the truth. They refuse to talk. Your hands... Your hands pressing on my back—pressure. I feel you. You touch my soul. Catch me—with your hands. Your chest against mine—wet. You’re real. You’re alive. Revive me. Beat. I miss your absence . You’re gone. Distance. Come back. Forget me not. Copyright © 2012 JJ Persis. All Rights Reserved. http://www.swiss-miss.com/2009/08/in-silence.html

Title: Frame By: JJ Persis Can I have a frame with a picture in it too? A picture of me and someone new? Can I have a day without any painful tears? A day when all my smiles will reappear? I wonder for which mistakes I’m being punished? Is it for all the anger that I failed to manage? Possibly for all the times I failed to say “no.” For all the times God wanted me to let go. How many “rights” will make-up for all my “wrongs.” When will I accept the fact that I’m not really that strong? Which piece of my heart will be the last to shatter? Who will be the one to tell me the past doesn’t matter? Will I be reborn in Spring or Fall? Can a Gypsy read my future in her crystal ball? Can I close my eyes and sleep through this ruthless cold? I want to wake up only when I’ve reached the yellow brick road. Can I have a life filled with softness and pleasure? A life where I will be someone else’s valued treasure? For all I want is to live a simple life. A life joined b...

Title: Intoxication By: JJ Persis Take back all my drunken nights, and give me just one night of intoxication from you. Take back all my years, and give me just one night of life with you. Amuse me, choose me, don’t let your heart refuse me. Protect me, select me, never let your mind forget me. One minute. One night. A memory for every tear. One glance. One smile. Nothing to ever fear. Leave your fingerprints all over my soul; Let the entire world know that you made me whole. For every minute that I miss, I’m living in your absence. For every heartbeat that skips, I’m breathing unconscious. Every kindness from you grew from the Silk Road. Every hello you said was as if it were a new word. One rose from you came with a dozen thorns; They were secrets of my future and the past I would mourn. For what is life, without eyes that judge you? For what is love, without a heart to hurt you? Copyright © 2012 JJ Persis. All Rights Reserved.

As time passes and we mature we learn and pick up many different characteristics and ways of life. Some are good and some are bad, and most of them make us the unique individuals that we are. I spent a lot of time over the weekend with friends, mostly old and some new. I began to think a lot about my relationships with each one, and how we have progressed over time. With each one I have laughed, cried, fought, argued, disagreed, enjoyed, experienced and made sweet memories with them during our travels through this journey called life. I woke up this morning, Monday May 7, 2012, and thought about “ forgiveness ” and what a complicated word it is. Forgiveness is something we learn to do. It’s something that comes from the bottom of our heart, and from true kindness. It’s not for everyone though. People forgive for different reasons. Some forgive because they understand. Others forgive because it’s to their benefit to do so. I forgive because I know we all make mista...